I Sought the Lord

Anonymous, circa 1878

I don’t know if there were any rules to bend in the case, but imagine a ten year old boy applying for admission to the Royal Academy of Music, in London. The year was 1826, and the boy’s name was William Sterndale Bennett, who became one of the most important teachers and promoters of classical music in England in the nineteenth century, and an accomplished performer and composer in his own right. He must have had quite a talent — at least, Mendelssohn thought so, and Mendelssohn was one of those happy souls who seem never to have been afflicted with even a trace of envy, so that he could and did admire excellence and grace wherever he found it. Perhaps some of that habit of admiration entered Bennett’s own soul, since it was he who did more than anyone to bring Bach to the attention of English audiences. In 1854, Bennett, one of the founders of the new Bach Society, conducted the first English performance of Bach’s Saint Matthew Passion. The organist — the most important of the musicians in that titanic work — was Edward J. Hopkins, the composer for the melody Artavia, our melody of choice for the Hymn of the Week, “I Sought the Lord.”

Hopkins himself benefited from someone else’s keeping to the rules when others wanted to bend them, because the rules sometimes give people a result they don’t like. The situation was this. In 1834, he people in charge of music at Saints Peter and Paul, in Mitcham, a borough in the southwest of London, were looking for a new organist, so they held a blind audition, meaning that they did not know who was at the organ, nor, apparently, were they introduced to the auditioners beforehand. Edward Hopkins was then 16 years old. He won the audition, but when the organizers saw him, they blanched. “He’s only a boy!” they said. But Hopkins had a friend in a high place: the organist at Westminster Abbey, for whom he substituted at times. I suppose if you are good enough for Westminster, you are good enough for Mitcham. And Hopkins, like Bennett, who was but two years his senior, began a long and distinguished career in music. In his case, he not only played the organ: he studied the organ and its instrumentation; he built organs; he wrote about them. For organs were not mass produced. We might say that you did not so much choose an organ for your church, as that your church — its acoustics, its space, its architectural opportunities and limitations — determined the dimensions and the characteristics of the organ that would be built for it; how many manuals the organ would have, how many ranks of pipes there would be, what kinds of sounds they would be formed to make, where they would be placed to best advantage, and so forth.

Saints Peter and Paul, Mitcham

We don’t know who wrote “I Sought the Lord,” though lately it has been attributed to Jean Ingelow (1820-1897), a prolific Victorian poet. The mood of it is right for her, as far as I can judge by one of her long poems, “Honors,” which is written in exactly the same meter and with the same rhyme scheme as is our hymn. The main speaker in “Honors” is a young man, a scholar, searching for God in an age of doubts. His answer comes from a friend, who says that he too once sought for God, but in the wrong places: “I have aspired to know the might of God, / As if the story of His love were furled.” There is the key. The anonymous author of that great work of medieval mysticism and practical advice in the life of prayer, The Cloud of Unknowing, says that God cannot be grasped by the intellect, but only by love. That is not to disparage the intellect, but to emphasize that God is a person — is Personhood itself; and we cannot know even a human person unless we love.

But here’s the thing with persons: they act, they can love. A theorem can’t act. A law can’t love. Good laws can help to make us fair and decent people, or at least help to keep us from becoming very bad people, but they can’t make us into persons. When it comes to the soul and God, all the initiative is on His side. If God left us to ourselves, we would seek forever and never find, or we would cease to seek, and that would be as if we had sealed ourselves up in a prison — comfortable, it may be, but still a prison. But God is beforehand with his mercy, and that’s a good thing for us. He is here, even at the gates.

Given the content of today’s essay, we had hoped to find a good organ rendition of our hymn, with the tune Artavia, perhaps sung by an excellent choir. We found only this demonstration of a simple piano version of Artavia, and have included it here for you to listen to, along with the words, below.

I sought the Lord, and afterward I knew
He moved my soul to seek him, seeking me;
It was not I that found, O Savior true;
No, I was found of thee.

Thou didst reach forth my hand and mine enfold;
I walked and sank not on the storm-vexed sea;
'Twas not so much that I on thee took hold,
As thou, dear Lord, on me.

I find, I walk, I love, but O the whole
Of love is but my answer, Lord, to thee;
For thou wert long beforehand with my soul:
Always thou lovedst me.